..Eureka!..

Ok, so call me a spoilt little brat but yesterday was a cccrraaapppyyy day. NOTHING was going my way.. and when I say this I mean nothing was going my way because I couldn't get the new laptop that I wanted because the new stock only comes in on Wednesday.. ontop of that my dad is stressing me out about my medical thing for my VISA which I still have not done courtesy of my laziness but hey, I'm starting this afternoooooonn... at least I'm getting started right??? RIGHT??? haha Okay so I am a spoilt brat but atleast I admit it, and this isn't ALL the time.. just sometimes, when I'm having a bad day and PMS-ing.. I'm really not ready to go .. mostly because it's so soon and it's sorta crept up on me without me even realising it.. but if I think about it I guess I'm sorta looking forward to it because it's an entirely new experience and I can be left to my own devices.. only not straight away because I have a full entourage of daddy and grandparents accompanying me to send me off.. o well..

Oh, I took that quizfarm thing from Naj's blog and surprise, surprise, law was definitely not at the top of my suggested majors:

You scored as Education/Counseling. Related majors that match your highest scored category: American Sign Language, Art Education, Business Education, Counseling, Early/Middle Childhood Education, Music Education, Physical Education, Psychology, Rehabilitation Services, Social Work, Special Education.


Consider all majors in your OTHER high scoring categories. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring.

Education/Counseling		94%
Religion/Theology		88%
Visual&PerformingArts		81%
English/Journalism/Comm		81%
Accounting/Finance/Econ		75%
Psychology/Sociology		69%
HR/BusinessManagement		69%
Nursing/AthleticTraining		50%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy		44%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology		44%
Physics/Engineering		38%
History/Anthropology		31%
French/German/Spanish		19%
Mathematics/Statistics		0%

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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Did you see that??? Early/childhood education??? Which is what I finally decided would be best suited for moi... even counselling.. well, I am fully convinced that my last minute choice was what I should end up doing. Ok, I admit it was pretty unfair to my parents telling them last minute that I wanted to change course.. and it's not like I'm not gonna do law.. sigh.. I will look at doing the law course as a.. preparation of sorts before I go and do this whole education thing.. besides.. most education courses only let you in after you've done another course in something first.. Plus I can always look at it in a way that "smart" people do law.. hence, making me a "smart" person.. LOL..

Speaking of smart, here's a question.. would you rather be a pretty ok looking person, brilliantly smart and has a really good future ahead of themselves (good future being nice house, nice EVERYTHING - in terms of material things) but has no social life whatsoever? Or would you rather be an ugly looking, but has a great social life and could potentially have a bright future because you're not that dumb but then again not that smart either?

Of course if the world was perfect we'd all be super great looking with super intelligence and everyone would be content and happy with life.. but since the world will never be perfect it's hard to strike a balance... I've decided, along with the decision that I now want to be involved with education or child care kinda stuff.. that my view of being content with life has changed.. I think now, well, my view on this has never really changed anyway but I've realised that if I do become a lawyer I would not be able to acheive what I want.. because once you have something in abundance.. like for example money, nothing will ever be enough.. and to me, that isn't fulfilling enough for me. I reckon, if I do become something like a teacher.. I'll be able to live comfortably.. travel (potentially).. I don't need a big house.. I don't need a lot of material things.. so yea.. I guess that's also how I knew that I definitely do not want to be a big hot shot lawyer.. but I bet I could be if I wanted to.. LOLOLOLOL.. ROFL..yea, right. I'm the sort of person that hates conflict.. I give in most of the time unless I am really passionate about a certain something involved in the conflict.. and you think I would make a good lawyer?? hahah.. although.. apparently I have a really good game face when I play guitar hero which my sisters say would probably work really well in court because there's no emotion whatsoever.. LOL at me again... haha..but yea, to all those people who have it all.. to smarts, looks, the ability to juggle a social life and work and sports and music and all that other mumbo jumbo.. - the world hates you =D

Puss! I miss you too!! - doesn't anyone go out??? sheesh... anyway hopefully I'll be seeing some of youse when I make my "giving out invitations" route..

Until later..

..in a constant state of denial..

Wow.. It's been ages since I've blogged.. I guess in a way I've been neglecting everything, I haven't actually been online since God knows when, I sure as hell haven't really been contacting any friends (sorry guys..) etc. etc. If you're wondering what I have been upto, I've pretty much been just vegging around, watching series upon series of CSI and other assorted movies while slowly becoming a spinster and doing my cross stitch while watching said CSI and assorted movies. At night, usually, I do make some effort and I go out to see Ben. If you're wondering what brought on this change.. I've been thinking and I think it's the fact that I've been completely demoralized and therefore have crawled back into a shell that I suppose I've been constructing in case I ever do have a demoralizing moment. Nana sorta knows whats happened.. but for the uninformed individual here it goes...

See, I was supposed to go to Warwick..I visited the bloody campus while I was in UK during my summer holiday.. I've picked accommodation there, I've envisioned my life there.. but nooooo they will not accept me on account of I got one blooody point less than what they wanted.. ugh.. so yea I'm not gonna go on and on but that's the gist of it.. and ontop of that, I've decided that law is really not the career for me.. I've figured out what I'd like to be doing besides law.. but nooo.. I got into a row with my dad and now, I have been "brainwashed" into thinking that "yes! law is for me! yay law!!!" ugh... give me a break.. I have a sister who is doing a peanut cake degree like fine arts, i mean, sorry to all you artists out there, but I mean, in the long run.. how successful could you possibly be, having a fine art degree.. most artists only get famous when they're dead... I understand if you're doing a graphic design or some shit like that.. but yea I think you get my point. Anyway so yea, I have a sister who is doing a peanut cake degree liek fine art and my dad won't let me do a teaching degree.. he says I have to do lawwww first then I can do whatever I want. Which is fine I guess, but seeing that I'm the only one out of the 8 children that will probably do law, once I graduate and do whatever I wanna do... I KNOW I will be pressured into running the law firm.. and knowing myself, I will feel bad if I don't. Argggghh... And then I find myself caught in between a cock and a hard place.. (haha remember that joke baby?)

During my long long period of self pity and demoralization I was thinking..(as I always do) and I wonder if anyone actually lives there life without being in some constant state of denial or being affected in some way or another.. I mean, if you think about it, in one way or another, we are always in some sort of phase of denial.. we are in denial about how good or bad looking we are, how fat or skinny we are, how smart or dumb we are... but if we accept for instance how good looking we are, we're considered vain.. up ourselves.. you name it.. but if we don't accept how good looking we are and think we're ugly.. then people eventually get bored of telling you that you look fine... and in the end you end up in some sort of state of depression because you have low self esteem and bla di bla di bla... I wonder if anyone actually lives their life accepting everything that come their way... but being such complex creatures we are always affected by something or other.. our emotions.. other people's emotions.. our surroundings.. our personalities.. we are too complex to ever be simple so much as to just accept everything.. plus, life would be boring if everyone accepted everything albeit there would be less wars.. *sigh* I'm glad I decided to actually go online today and publish something.. I feel a lot better.. maybe I'll come out of my shell soon.. but yea, I hope everyone is getting along fine with their universities and what not.. NANA darling, I will call you soon and you better tell me you piece of juicy gossip! hehe..

Oh, and to all my IB-ans, since I'll be going to Sheffield instead of Warwick, I have to leave earlier than expected.. basically next week will be my last week here.. I'll be leaving in 10 days as of today... (if you still don't get it, I'm leaving on the 13th)... which is waaaayy to soon for me.. I'm not ready! =( but, neither of us will be when the time comes.. but yea anyhooo.. there'll be a party at my house this coming saturday, with a dj.. shisha... food.. the works.. be expecting an invitation from me soon!!! You'll have to RSVP and tell me if you're coming or not ya? ok.. I'm out.. maybe I'll post again later..

Till Later..