..je suis perdue..

Hellew, hellew, hellew..

This week has been pretty hectic, what with my social commitments and the coming out of my results, not to mention late nights trying to finish all the reading I'm expected to do.. but once again, before I know it, it's the end of the week!! and 2 more weeks until Easter break!! that's crazy.. not long after easter I'll be having my final exams as a first year student.. It's amazing how fast time flies.. It's times like these I really wish it could slow down.. I feel as though my life is flying before my eyes..

I don't have much to post up today as I have not had the opportunity to even sit alone with my thoughts at all this week.. but o well.. =s My thoughts tend to drive me a lil crazy sometimes.. haha I mean, have you ever felt as though there are just a million and one things buzzing around in your head.. but even though someone asks you what you're thinking about, you can't really tell them what because it's a bit of mess, thoughts going after the other, in all different directions and you're just trying to sort em out and get your head to slow down a bit and stop taking too many things in.. I'm so weird.. LOL..

Anyway, results came out on Friday, and I've got tosay I've survived the first set of exams.. and I came out... with pretty good grades if i do say so myself, but I won't brag about em.. haha

So I posted on Naj's comment box thing that I'd somewhat discuss her lil discussion on the whole religion thing. And usually I don't like voicing out my opinions on religion because I tend to be a bit "lovey-dovey" "hippie" and liberal on the subject and religion is such a contentious issue, people can get easily offended, or take me the wrong way... But (and I'm sorry if I offend anyone by saying this) what Naj posted sounded so preposterous (is that how you spell it?) to me, that I can't avoid not talking about it..

So for those of you who didn't read Naj's blog, basically, to cut the long explanation short - in Islam, music if considered "haraam" and that means EVERYTHING to do with music. {oops i guess all these years of doing music in school and being passionate about singing and playing the piano will send me to hell} <-- excuse the sarcasm there but I couldn't resist. Well, to get things straight, its not like I didn't know that in some places they take this whole music is haram thing seriously, I did.. and I've always felt a bit... *scrunches up face* about it.. Right now I've got this Omani friend.. he's awweessoommeee.. he's awesome at the guitar as well (bass as well) but for years he had to actually hide the fact that he could play an instrument and was interested in it because his step mother was really against music n stuff.. but in the end his dad told him he could keep it.. so that kinda opened up my eyes a lil bit..

But back to the issue at hand.. I'm sorry with the use of language here, but I just find it Ridiculous. I guess it goes against the way the logic in my mind works and has always worked. and it just doesn't register with my logic on any level at all.
Firstly, why are our voice boxes created in such a way that we can make or enable us to sing and make music? Wouldn't we have been better off stuck as cave men then, not being able to do anything, making guttural noises to communicate because i mean, at least its not singing right? {and just on a side not here, I apologise to anyone who may take offense but there is no surpressing my sarcastic tone when it comes to this issue - I am trying to be as open minded as i can be... }
Secondly, the call to prayer can be classified as a form of music.. songs sung during weddings, songs made by birds and wildlife.. music and songs make up a big part of our life and are in a way fundamental to our emotions it is difficult to see why a God that is supposed to be all loving and benevolent and unselfish would consider that a sin.. something that he himself put on Earth.. now the earlier point is debatable as it could be argued that if you've never experienced it before you won't miss it.. but thats a bit too late for a lot of the world now isn't it? {HOWEVER, in order to disregard music and "ban" it you will have had to know what it was in the beginning wouldn't you?} And this particular line of argument can be used on quite a few contentious issues regarding religion. And this all isn't written with the view that I am trying to change or undermine peoples beliefs, but I think everything needs a second opinion, just to open up peoples minds. (afterall your mind is a wonderful thing, it would be sad if it wasn't challenged and opened up to new possibilities every now and again).

Here's a question: There are 2 men. The first one is a highly religious person who has spent his whole life praying, and being devoted to God, he has done all that he has been bid to do and has pretty much, never sinned in his entire life. The second man is someone who is full of sin, i don't think i need to go into the details in this case I think we all know what i mean here. So, one day, both men find out that they are going to die the very next day. The first one thinks- I have spent my whole entire life doing so and so, I am going to die tomoro, I think I'd like to do something different for a change and so does all the things that he was told not to do. The second man decides that he wants to repent for all this sins that he has done for his entire life.
Now, the big question here is: Which guy goes to Heaven? The first guy devoted his entire life to God is God so harsh so as to send him to Hell simply because of one day? The second guy had devoted his entire life to sin but in the end discovered the error of his ways and repented. But does that make up for before?

I think that to an extent it is an important part of our lives to have guidance, particularly if you believe in a religion with a God n all that... Guidance is always important because things that are written in the Qura'an or Bible or whatever depending which religion you're from is something which you live by in order to live to your best ability, the one thing that all these "books" have in common is to try and show you the best way to live according to your faith and beliefs. But at the end of the day.. that's all they are, they're guidance.. and they're there for you when you need that guidance, in the end its up to you as an individual. God knows what you think, how you feel inside.

Anyway I'm gonna stop here because I'm getting a headache lol. Nah not really, It's just that this debate could go on forever. And I didn't really want it to get THIS long.. hahaha so till next time, hopefully I'll have something a bit more cheerful to write about.. and less... contentious haha.

A la prochaine fois!! xx