..happy days..

Hello everyone..

It's been awhile since I've posted, I've been busy with loooaaads of stuff.. work and play ;) As it gets towards the end of the year I've been more emotional and pensive, I guess whenever it's the end of the year I tend to reflect more and generally start to think about everything that's happened within the year, the good and the bad... and the things that I feel utterly grateful for...

..I think I'd like to start with a list of a few things that I feel make my life, a sort of tribute if you like, to everything that makes me want to live for the next day and to the fullest...

First off, to the 2 men in my life, Ern and Ben... Ern for always sticking there for me even though he's never really agreed with my choice in men.. but it's always because for some reason he thinks that I can do so much better.. I guess that shows what he thinks of me even though he doesn't say it ;) I've known him since primary 1 back in the day when I was in St. Andrews and a little pudgy girl hehe... and Ben.. for giving me the best 4 years of my life.. Even though we're not together anymore, it goes to show that love knows no bounds. Like Ern, he knows my strengths, my weaknesses, my flaws.. everything. And he taught me how to love. The road was never really easy for me and him, but led me on a road that in a big way, has encouraged me to grow into the person that I am today.. He loves me unconditionally, and I, him.

..To my family.. who I know will always be there for me no matter what... My parents and grandparents who have pushed me when I've needed to be pushed.. and without me knowing at the time, in the right direction just at the right time. They might not have let me go, and while I might moan and groan about it, but I know they will, when the time is right. My sisters who have always looked out for me, even though they don't say so.. my brother whom I know loves it when I specifically help him with this homework and bring him on outings with my boyfriends due to the lack of men at home... even tho he doesn't say so. My parents have done a great job on bringing all 7 (now 8!) of us up even though at times they may not think so ;)

To my friends... I didn't want to put up ALL the pictures that I have... but you all know who you are! hehe. What can I say.. my friends have always been the people that I know I can turn to when I need a second opinion... when I'm feeling sh*t or just upset... Many a time has a friend like Nana and Fid listened to me cry on the phone for some reason or other.. Sometimes I feel bad that often I have put other people (like boyfriends) ahead of my friends.. and it worries that sometimes, it may seem like I have taken them for granted.. But that is the magic of friends. Friends will always be there for you.. to understand you, to feel with and for you.. to lend a helping hand or ear... Friends will always be there for you, even though they don't say it at the time..

Now, I know that I was going to include a bit more in my list, but in the "commotion" in all this, I've forgotten what the rest were... which just goes to show.. maybe all of the above are all I really need in this life. I re-read everything that I've written, and I noticed something...there's always something that isn't said... by friends, boyfriends, family...I wonder why that is.. it's funny how most of the time we say meaningless things but when it comes to the things that DO matter, the things that involve our deepest emotions...we get scared... and that's too bad.. It's funny how it takes a lot of courage to say what we really mean. But I guess that's human nature eh... we're scared of being vulnerable, and causes pure things like trust and naivety to be seen as flaws... I guess that's why love is so sought after, and coveted.. because it gives you something that you would never really experience with normal people... in love, you're vulnerable and in that, all those other 'pure' emotions... shine through. And when I say love here, I don't mean being in love with another man, or woman... being university, you realise, that you can love lots of people in an abundant number of ways...

..Anyway, I'm not gonna go on n on about this... you can never really get just one answer when you start talking about emotions...hehe anyway, on a somewhat lighter note, I'd just like everyone to know that I love you all... and I feel so grateful to have met all of you.. you know who you are ;)

Haha.. and the pic of the day.. we had a xmas party down at the bar recently.. and apparently... some girl got it on with one of her friends... haha ;)

Hmm.. I wonder who that coudl be LOL. Hmmm.. tune in later for more updates lol!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone!!!! and may God Bless. xox