..apparently I've been Tagged..

Hellew..
APPARENTLY I have been Tagged... I've been reading everyone elses questionnaire thingies lately.. and i was HOPING that I would'nt get it... but.. I did... =/ *ahem*NAJAT* =p Sooo.. in the spirit of things, as i do... i will do my questionnaire.. although, I probably won't have anyone to tag after.. so everyone else can have a breath of relief ;) ...for now...

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1) Are your parents married or divorced?- Married and happy =)

2) Are you a vegetarian?- Never. I am a full on carnivore. MEEEAAATTTT. is goooood and don't you forget it ;)

3) Do you believe in Heaven?- Most Definitely.

4) Have you ever come close to dying?- When I was little I almost drowned in our swimming pool @ my grandpa's place. Bcoz my sister thought I was our other sister n jumped on me. (we were playing horsy) =s And then again at the RBA club when I went down the slide - which i shouldn't hv coz I couldn't swim that well.. but my older sisters were going on it n so I wanted to too. LOL.

5) What jewellery do you wear 24/7?- My earrings and previously my rings. Not much of a jewellrey wearer unless there's a special occasion.

6) Favourite time of day?- I'm an early bird.. so early in the morning.. makes me feel like I've got lots of time to do everything i want to.

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?- Yea..?

8) Do you wear makeup?- Yep, the basic... a lil bit o eyeliner..mascara..lip balm/gloss..blusher.. never really any of that foundation stuff tho.. again, only during special occasions..

9) Ever have plastic surgery?- No and would never.

10) Do you colour your hair?- I have. But not regularly or a lot. And not anything drastic =s

11) What do you wear to bed?- Nothing. LOL. nyeh depends on my mood.

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?- ....do i have to answer this...? lol

13) Can you roll your tongue?- Yep =)

14) Do you tweeze your eyebrows?- Yep. Shuda seen them before LOL thick much?

15) What kind of sneakers?- Hmm.. I like high heels.. all the sport shoes i 'own' aren't really mine.. =s But if I had to choose, converse.

16) Do you believe in abortions?- Toughie. Maybe.

17) What is your hair color?- Dark brown/black

18) Future child’s name?- me nono.... Something with a nice meaning. It's true.. your name sorta makes up who U are.

19) Do you snore?- ermm.. not really. But I have known to snore slightly when I'm reaaalllly relaxed, you kno those type of sleeps where ur really relaxed n end up sleeping with your mouth open hahahah

20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?- Everywhere. Why just go to one place? But top of my list.. Norway aaanndd the caribbean islands.

21) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?- Nope. With my bantal paluk hehe ;) Tried sleeping with a stuffed animal before.. didn't really work out... i prefer full body action LOL

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?- Pay for everything my dad and mummy needs to work so hard for to pay for.

23) Gold or Silver?- Silver.. bit a lil bit of gold is alright too. Just nothin OTT and gaudy.

24) Hamburger or hot dog?- Burgerrrr

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?- Sushi

26) City, beach or country?- Hmm... *dreams* country

27) What was the last thing you touched?- Touched too many things to say ;) haha

28) Where did you eat last?- The dining hall downstairs

29) When’s the last time you cried?- ..err..quite recently.. does tearing up count?

30) Do you read blogs?- Yaah otherwise I wouldn't be filling in the questionnaire now would i?? haha

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?- Yea.. couldn't hurt.. hehe

32) Ever been involved with the police?- Hmm.. not reeeaaallllyyy.

33) What’s your favourite shampoo conditioner and soap?- Brillian Brunette by John Frieda or Herbal Essences...soap i'm not that fussy bout..but right now I'm using dove.

34) Do you talk in your sleep?- I've been known to before..but not recently

35) Ocean or pool?- Ocean. Even though I'm slightly freaked about what could be in there but it's just so relaxing. Plus you got the whole atmosphere going on..

38) Window seat or aisle?- Window. I like looking outside..

39) Ever met anyone famous?- Hmmm....Yea actually =D

40) Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?- Yea, i feel pretty successful right now...but it's too early to say..

41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?- Twwwiirrrlll

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42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?- Who's Ricki Lake?

43) Basketball or Football?- Football (esp. after Mei's post ;) )

44) How long do your showers last?- depends.. 5 - 20 mins

45) Automatic or do you drive a stick?- I don't officially drive yet but I would like to drive a stick once i do ;)

46) Cake or ice cream?- What kinda question is this??? what's this 'or' business. I'm not gonna pick between the two... What kind of normal person would do that? lol. I love both.

47) Are you self-conscious?- Hell yea.

48) Have you ever drank so much you threw up?- ...yea...

49) Have you ever given money to a beggar?- Yup

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50) Have you been in love?- Ow YES.

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51) Where do you wish you were?- In Norway either that, or home..

52) Are you wearing socks?- Non.

53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?- Nope and I hope I won't have to.

54) Can you tango?- No.. But id like to learn.

55) Last gift you received?- ooo.. probably my birthday presents =( yea its been that long..

56) Last sport you played?- wow.. i duno.. does pilates n going to the gym count?

57) Things you spend a lot of money on?- clothes...clothes...yea... oh and clothes. haha depends i usually spend a lot going out for drinks or dinner or whatever

58) Where do you live?- Stephenson Halls..blegh student accommodation but its not so bad.

59) Where were you born?- Good ol RIPAS

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60) Last wedding attended?- My uncles. sometime last year..

63) Most hated food?- GINGER. someone get rid of all the ginger in the world. PLEASE.

64) What’s your least favourite food?- i love food =) soo, the answer to this question would have to be ginger.

65) Can you sing?- I can carry a tune if that's what you mean..I'm alright i guess.

66) Last person you instant messaged?- My uncle Loo Yen. {daddy's orders}

67) Last place you went on holiday?- I haven't been on holiday in aaaaggeess... hmm.. probably London.. right before I had to come back to study.

68) Favourite regular drink?- Water. and OJ.

69) Tag 3 friends:- Whoooo hasn't been tagged yet... *jaws music* Ok, I pick.. Mervin and Wong and Pak Ming. haha couldn't think of anyone else plus nana's blog doesn't seem to be around anymore. =s

70) Current song? - Lots. Saltwater (Thrillseekers Remix) - Chicane.. Freak me - Another level.. yah and loads. =s

..turn up the heat..

Hey..

not a very long post today, but I REALLY don't have anything to do now that I have no exams and essays to do so I've been adding stuff to my blog.. well, not really.. but I have added one of those music thingies... just to get everyone into the mood for my upcoming posts ;) haha.. It is a classic song... and is definitely good for setting tha mood *hehe* Enjoy.

..And for all of you who would rather something that is more.. tamer, sweeter... here are a few things that a few actors have said to "What makes a man fall in love?" - a lil self esteem booster for us women.. and to remind us that men can actually be pretty sweet... which is why we fall for them in the first place ;) hehe {courtesy of Glamour magazine (lol)}:

Harry Connick Jr, musician: "The question isn't 'what?' it's 'how much?' No, really, the question is 'who?'. And all of the 'whats' that make up the 'who' are why you fall in love."

Matthew McConaughey: "When you're living and breathing a woman. You know every moment would be better if you were with them. You can't sleep because you can't wait to wake up i the morning to see them or you can't sleep because they're in bed with you and you don't want to go to sleep. Guys do this too, you know."

**Alain de Botton, Philosopher and auther of Essays in Love: "...Why do men often find something attractive in the awkward features of a woman's body or psychology, in precisely those areas where the woman herself would never expect to be appreciated? Because these small irregularities in a woman are a sign of her vulnerability and therefore a promise of intimacy - so become attractive. The gappy teeth, moles, scars or ugly pyjamas are gateways to a more private person - they are the unusual but indispensable gateways to a woman's soul."

**Alex James, musician: "Men are always falling in love. We can't help it. Falling in love is not a rational process. There is something about it that will always remain slightly out of control, and that is mainly because of the other person. Love is not something you can really ever have a plan or even an idea for. The only thing that's for sure is that once the ball is rolling, the more you give, the more you get back. There's only one thing that really makes a man fall in love with a woman and it's the woman herself, the whole thing - worries, weaknesses, warts and all."


..*sigh* so the next time you're feeling crap.. or think that your man doesn't love you or doesn't think you're good enough.. chances are... that it's probably the entire opposite.. ;) So let's forget all our shortcomings and know that those who love us, love us purely because of those shortcomings... whether its your man, or just a friend ;)

Enjoy today people.. bring in your comments, participate.. and let's turn up the heat ;) xx

..oh the disappointment..

Hello everyone..

I suddenly realised that I am completely and totally free for the next week and a half or so!!! woohooooo... hehe =D and NANA. This blog is specifically aimed at YOU. I am disappointed!!! 'What is World of Warcraft"???? ..very disappointing indeed.. =/ I will have to educate you my dear friend. World of warchraft is a MMO RPG - a Massively Multiplayer Online Role-Playing Game. Basically you pick a character, go online, play with millions of real people online and you go questing and kill enemies and all that... hehe. This game is genius. This game could possibly be the only game that has single handedly been linked to job losses, uni failures, break ups, deaths and making and meeting interesting friends online =D haha married couples play it, EVERYONE plays it! it's a phenomenon! haha ok I am sounding waaayy too geeky there.. but yea, its a computer a game =s haha but it's fun.. There has even been a South Park episode on it.. you should check it out it's pretty funny..

And on that note, I will leave you with some screenshots of the game, just to show you what it looks like and stuff. The game is mostly surreal and that's another reason why i like it so much. If you have a good graphics card (hello to all the lucky people who play WoW on Macs) it looks amazing ;) :

An example of how many people can be online at any time..

But yea, enough of that... I was thinking that in the spirit of Valentine's day which I know is a while away.. but February is almost upon us, so I thought why not spice and turn the HEAT up on my blog eh? hehe. The topic for today is kissing.. and let's not be afraid of getting it really heated up guys.. it can get as x-rated as you want. lol. {I'm counting on you Nana, you horny biyatch lol} And each day or whenever I feel like updating, there will be a new topic that you all comment on.. should be interesting ;)

So.. the question for today is.. what is the best kiss you have ever had? Or what do you envision to be the kiss that turns you on the most. And this isn't restricted to just the lips. Aaaannd I don't mean this in an x-rated way either. Let's start off tamely shall we?

Do you like it when the other person bites your bottom lip lightly and then licks it straight after? Or do sweet soft kisses get you everytime? Is your neck a soft spot? {i know mine is ;)} Do you think that your woman wears too much perfume and makeup and you'd rather smell her.. and see her.. without the enhancements..? Do you hate wet kisses?

To get the ball rolling, here is what kinda kiss gets me ON everytime.. haha The kind of kiss that starts of soft.. slow.. almost teasing.. and then slowly feeling his lips move to my neck and ears.. oh and its a plus if he has stubble too.. its all about the senses people! *woo* I can feel myself getting hot already LOL. Alright, don't be shy.. leave your comments! I'm interested. The Lurve Doctor is in and ready to sin ;) haha ok lame. anyway... just participate. hehe...

Till next time ;)

..frostshock!!..

Heyllo everyone..
haha yes, the title of today's.. well, more like tonights, post is rawther sad.. it's to do with the ONLINE SENSATION that is the WORLD OF WARCRAFT. As I have undoubtedly mentioned previously, it is damn addictive and now I am hooked and it is definitely the only thing you need. Having problems with your boyfriend? kill on WoW! Boyfriend complaining that you don't spend enough time with him? Spend it on WoW! Hey, it's a lot cheaper than going out to eat no? Minus the calories too =) haha. Yes, I am a geek.

Hmm.. I was thinking of updating my blog earlier.. but I couldn't think of anything to write about =s there's nothing really that interesting that has been happening lately =/ And I don't have anything to B**** about... There must be something wrong with the World... Hmm.. what have I been doing lately anyway...?

There's WoW (ok, I'll shut up about it now..), been watching Heroes the TV series... - it is goooooddd =) you all need to hop onto the bandwagon and watch that too.. hmm.. that's bout it really.. and slowly working towards an essay that'll be due in soon. Meh, how boring. I'd always love to imagine my life to be so much more interesting.. Wouldn't you love to be something like... a secret spy... or or something cool like that... haha I know I would... I would either want to be a rogue or assassin or something.. but a good one... haha.

Anyway I am sloooowwwllly starting to fall asleep so I better go. Hopefully something interesting will happen soon. ;) haha You guys can count on me haha for your daily dose of dramatics and theatrics. =p See ya.

..cigarettes and coffee..

Hey guys..
Tonight's post looks like its gonna be a long one... =s so bear with me if you can... ;)

..Humiliation..

..Why do we feel hurt or angry when become humiliated or embarassed?.. When we think that our pride has been punctured...?

Needless to say, this topic arises because, I, feel quite embarassed, or humiliated for the better word, quite recently. I won't go into the details of the how's and the why's; But let's just say I feel like such a fool for getting caught up in something that could all be just a dream - when I should've realised and known better. And it is the thought of my 'dream' being punctured and the fact that I fell into it in the first place, that has caused this bout of humiliation.

I think that it is pretty obvious that once again I have got too caught up in my overwhelming emotions.... and fell.

The actual outcome of this humiliating moment is not as bad as you or even I might think, but it has certainly grounded me and brought me back to earth. (Ah yes, the Earth that consists of essays that haven't been written and exams that haven't been studied for to the best of my abilities!)

..Why is it that I always let my emotions get the better of me?.. I suppose that it is in my nature that to an extent I wear my heart on my sleeve and the fact that I tend to look at people that I meet for the first time without any suspicions until they prove it to me (which is, of course, too late) - this often leads people to think that I am naive, and careless, reckless.. But I cannot hide or try get away from the fact that I am , and I know, that my emotions make up a big part of my life and that it is in me to be able to be overwhelmed by my own emotions. To this extent, I would even go as far as proposing that I trust my emotions with my life.

Right now I am so pent up with frustration, disappointment and irritation at myself for allowing to get caught up in the 'mess' that are my emotions. (They are here, there and everywhere!) Many a day I try remind myself to try take a more rational, logical view of things and find myself struggling.
Oh sure, following my emotions and heart definitely do lead me to many interesting adventures (however risky they may be at the time!) and are not to be looked back upon with regret but always leaves a bag gap for disappointment, or like now, a high level of embarassment. (To me, of course, but then again, I always overreact =s )

But will this stop me from reaching to wehere I previously intended? ...No, I dont think so.. at most, I'd probably look at this as a... side track of sorts.

I looked up the meaning of 'humiliation' on wikipedia and this is what came up:

..Humiliation is literally the act of being made humble, or reduced in standing or prestige. However, the term has much in common with the emotion of shame. Humiliation is not in general a pleasant experience, as it reduces the ego..

..I would usually probably go on to discuss my views on things like pride and the ego, but at this moment in time do not think I am capable.. So I'lll leave it here.. ;)

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Wow what a depressing post this has turned out to be, although I shall try leave on a lighter note ;)

Usually I am not the one that listens to an abundant amount of rock songs, nor am I usually a big fan. But I am brought about to a somewhat newer perspective. Of course, take note, this does not mean that I am 'into' rock or heavy metal or whatever now. However, it does mean that in some circumstances I have changed my mind ;)

Lately upon the recommendation of a friend, I have taken an enormous liking to the song Nothing Else Matters by Metallica. To me, it is a love song, that springs hope in me, and to me, the lyrics seem so powerful - the kind that you would think could only be emulated in a rock song and not by any other genre. Not pop or rnb - where you would typically find the stereotypes for 'proper' love songs. Nor even jazz or blues. Now, i could be swayed by the present state of affairs but after listening to it countless times I find that the more I listen to it, the more I can relate to it, and the more I appreciate it. So it is with this that I end my post. They lyrics to this song. (I especially love the lyrics "trust I seek and I find in you.." - everytime that bit comes up, I can FEEEEL it... lol its just the way he sings it..or maybe it's just because of how I've been feeling lately..) Enjoy ;)

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Nothing Else Matters

So close no matter how far..

Couldn't be much more from the heart..

Forever, trusting who we are..

..and nothing else matters..

Never opened myself this way..

Life is ours, we live it our way..

All these words I don't just say...

..and nothing else matters..

Trust I seek, and I find in you..

Everyday for us, something new..

Open mind for a different view..

..and nothing else matters..

Never cared for what they do..

Never cared for what they know..

But I know...

So close no matter how far..
Couldn't be much more from the heart..
Forever, trusting who we are..
..and nothing else matters..

Never cared for what they do..

Never cared for what they know..

But I know...

Never opened myself this way..
Life is ours, we live it our way..
All these words I don't just say...
..and nothing else matters..

Trust I seek, and I find in you..
Everyday for us, something new..
Open mind for a different view..
..and nothing else matters..

Never cared for what they say..

Never cared for games they play..

Never cared for what they do..

Never cared for what they know..

And I Know...

So close no matter how far..
Couldn't be much more from the heart..
Forever, trusting who we are..
..No, Nothing Else Matters..

..procrastination and more..

Hello everybody!!!

So, I'm up early yet again, with the original plan being that I will most definitely finish reading that supppeerr long case for a "no more than 3000 word" essay that is due in on MONDAY.. yep, I'm dead. But, I dunno.. I just can't do it!! I try.. really I do! last night.. after dinner.. I tried.. and I fell asleep on my computer =s *pout* arrrgghh but I didn't want to moan in this post.. mayb later ya? I thought that since I wasn't doing anything, I might as well update my blog...



Haha just finished reading Nana's.. funny shite man... I love her site.. although her taste in guys... is debatable.. you seem to go for the oldies my darling.. o well.. she's really an old lady on in the inside.. LOL...



Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone! Hope everyone had a blast.. I know I did.. *hehe* well, apart from weird drunk people coming up and trying to kiss me (some on the lips)! (which kinda freaked me out - but very flattering =) ) Although, it is confirmed people, that I will not be marrying a Bruneian, but a very hot Italian man.. I know language will be a problem but there will be no barriers to our love.. kiidddiiinnngg! hahah The scary thing on New Years was that on the way back to the tube station there was such a crush! and people kept on pushing and ugh... you wouldn't exactly like being up close n personal with some old indian dude now would you..?yea enough said, although in the end me, dd and waida ended up getting crushed against 2 very attractive italian men... *ahem ahem* Who later gave us their numbers!!!! when we finally got safely into the tube station. It was llluuurrrvveelly and may I mention that they think I look good with the cuter italian guy.. haha

The crush on the way to the fireworks...

*siggghhh....* lol

So of course more happened during my stay in London.. for example.. my first experience in a gay club... it was.... interesting... considering that my closer friends kinda know that I can be quite hmm.. whats the word here... well lets just say that sometimes it freaks me out! and i'm not saying that I'm not open - I am... but... its complicated ;) anyhoo.. so it was SUPPOSED to be a mixed night... but... didn't seem like it! lol.. it's really sayang tho.. coz some of the gay men were actually pretty hot... but it's like, everyone had their partner n all that... =s Aaaannd then we had a party which me, dd, waida and ern actually hosted and cooked for ;) It was a great night... we had home made lasagna.... turkey.... chickeeenn... mashed potatoes... sweet potatoes.... mmm... and the dessert.. was pretty sinful.. =p All in all, it was a great night.. more deets and pictures to come soon...

Now usually I'd break away from all the boring stuff (up there) and provide you with a thought here n there about who-knows-what.. but you kno what? It's too damn early in the morning.. but that's not to say there's nothing cooking up in my head hehe ;) For the past few days I have been practically living at my desk (since I'm back in Shef).. and you would think.. ohh yes, good girl, studying.. but nooooo.. I've been playing WoW.. the game of all games. Hehe and hving midnight conversations with my quest buddy online about what we think of love and everything that is and isn't deep. LOL @ Me.

I need a sense of adventure.. I've been realising more and more that compared to most people, I am more than likely to welcome a risky adventure here n there... for those who know me best.. you guys gotta know that this is true.. the drama... the excitement *in bored tone* *woohoo* O well, there is a risky adventure in the works guys... No drama because I've pretty much been keeping to myself lately.. hehe anyway in the mean time, here is my new years resolution list...

1. Stay motivated in my course and try to put my all into it ...BUT...
2. always make time to spend with ALL my friends - as of lately.. I have NOT been motivated in my course at all... motivation has not reared its ugly head as of late.. and I am still waiting. Although getting my ass moving could always help... =s and juggling friends has always been a tough one for me...
3. Don't be too worried or let the thought of relationships consume me - HAVE FUN! - if you've been reading my previous posts - you kno what i mean ;)
4. Spend my allowance wisely - save up! - yep, I'm a bit of a spender *hehe* but I gotta save up for my jaunt to Norway come Easter ;)
5. Make an effort to call home every once in a while... - I miss my family *sniff*
6. Go snowboarding!
7. More dancing! (the proper kind.. not the club kind ;) )
8. Learn how to play the guitar.. BUT..
9. Keep up with my piano
10. Learn how to speak Spanish.

So by the end of the year, you should be expecting, a Nur that can speak Spanish, and play a bit of guitar , yet still be able to play her piano relatively well, one that has improved her dancing skills and can snowboard better than before... who calls her family every once in a while and does not spend overly much, who doesn't care about relationships, spends loads of time with all her friends and is motivated. HMMMM... this is gonna be quite a tough quest... atleast this makes for an interesting 2007. ;)

Anyhoo, I don't have anything more interesting to say nor witty so I shall make a move on... hopefully I'll get some work done before lunch tho i doubt it ;)

Ciao for nowww.. (haha i got that from that series 8 simple rules.. lol it was funny..)